Farewell.

Dear 2008,

I guess it's time to say goodbye now. But before I do, I want to thank you for being so good to me. I appreciate all that you've taught me this past year and want to thank you for putting me through the ups and downs of life's rollercoaster. I've hated it but I've also enjoyed it, and I've been able to learn that you have to go through the struggles in order to fully understand and appreciate the beauty that life has to offer. With you, I've learned how to let go of past love, how to love myself more than I ever could have, and how to give that love to someone who is fully deserving of it. I've learned that family is constant, that true love never dies, and that with happiness comes hardships. With you I've been able to become a more independent, strong-minded and stronger-willed person. I've learned how to be more selective about things, how to take chances, and also how to make the right decisions for nobody but myself. I've learned that honesty is the best policy and that parents will soon get over things with time. I've learned that it's the little things in life that make a big difference and that love is about giving and not being envious about it. With you, I've also been able to learn what I am worth, that I never deserve to be treated like shit, that if I get my heart broken, it's not the end of the world, that I have people who love me, and that I love myself way more than I could ever love another person. I've been able to put my guards up, but have also been able to find someone who I don't mind letting my guards down for. You've been a great challenge in my life, but you've helped shape me in so many ways. I now know what kind of person I am, what I like, what I love, who I love and why I may dislike certain people or things. I now accept everything I am, everything I do, everything people do for me, and everything people have done to me. Because of you and all that you've done, I've been able to hit rock bottom and rise again to the top. I've seen the worst but I've also seen the best. I've looked back at my past and seen where I will never let myself be again and I've seen the light at the end of the tunnel and realize that I've been through a lot in just this year alone. You've made me such a stronger person than I've ever been and I can't wait to see what the future brings me. Its inevitable that I have to leave you, but I pray that 2009 will be nothing short of amazing.

With love,

Brittanie.

xoxo

merry christmas! :)

Love Stories.

Oh and one last thing.

To end with a quote.

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get — only what you are expecting to give — which is everything. What you will receive in return varies. But it really has no connection with what you give. You give because you love and cannot help giving." - Katharine Hepburn

Mistletoe.

Hello December! Man, one more week and I'm FINALLY on winter break!! :] I haven't even read the blog since I last posted and Brittanie's post make me so excited! Anyways, I'm so happy B's in Love. hahaha I'm officially now going to put in Love Actually just cuz you said that. But yeah, with me, I've never been happier. I feel like things are going just fine and I love how everythings turning out to be. I finally feel like I can start with a clean slate and things are finally moving in my life. Maybe it's because I started clinicals, WHICH BY THE WAY ARE AT UC FUCKING LA! yeowzas! But yeah. Haha. I'm learning how to balance everything in my life right now and I'm expecting 2009 to be incredibly... different, interesting, fun and exciting. I can't wait. [: But yeah, quick update, hello and goodbye, and best of holiday wishes to everyone! <3 Suck it.

everybody knows.

but nobody really knows.
how to make it work,
or how to ease the hurt.
we've heard it all before,
everybody knows,
just how to make it work...

I really want the john legend evolver CD. merry christmas to me? I think so. I'm excited to be getting paid tomorrow. On top of that, we get our holiday discount for one more weekend, so I have to make sure I get all the christmas presents I can while it lasts.

Anywho, field trip to the YSL exhibit tomorrow in SF. Jealous? You should be. If not, then you're probably going too or you've already been. :) Sweet dreams.

btw.

free.

Got a minute of free time, so I've decided to slip in a word or two. The truth of the matter is that I haven't been able to blog because, well, I'm in love :) For the past couple months, my time has been spent with a person that I absolutely adore and who absolutely adores me, and I couldn't ask for anything more. I try not to depend on others so much, but ever since he's been around, I feel a lot more stable and he gives me the security that taurus's like myself long for in relationships. But, other than the fact that I'm in a very great relationship, which of course has its downward spirals (in which case we learn not to take anything too seriously), school and work have otherwise been my main focus(es).

Finals are this week and next week, and although I'd usually be stressing off of them at this time, I'm not. But that in no way means that I'm actually prepared for my finals. I have to do a paper for my marketing class, a timeline on the life of the fabulous Betsey Johnson, a final exam for math, and of course final exams for marketing and intro to fashion. I was supposed to audition for my school's fashion show (which is march 09) and I really wanted to be a part of it (the audition was to become a finalist to have your collections/pieces showcased in the show), but because of work and other projects, I was unable to put together my slideshow and my mood/theme boards. So, now I intend to sign up to work behind the scenes at the fashion show, which could also do good for my resume, plus I figure since I haven't done a fashion show before, working backstage will help me gain knowledge and experience for the next fashion show in which I can actually design for.

Work is work. It comes and it goes, some days slower than others, but I always find things to do. And it sucks because I have to close this and next friday, so bye bye fridays for awhile :( oh, and i'm crossing my fingers and toes and eyes that I don't have to work on christmas eve!!!

I MISS KREESH. sorry, just thought I'd put that in there because I really miss her and need to see her ASAP! kreesh, i don't care how you get here, just get here. Grazie. (is that how you spell it? haha)

what else???... this month has been crazy and hectic, but I'm getting through it with a positive mind and my head high. I can't wait for christmas, but more importantly I can't wait for the new year. 2009 is going to be a year of mad changes, and I'm so fucking excited.

<3333333

p.s. I'll update the layout when I have more free time :) It's fine the way it is.

default.

back to default. waiting for brittanie to spark some remarkable creative layout onto this thing. if you dont wanna brit, u dont gotta. hahah. but i miss you babygirrrrrrl. <3


anyways, we're all busy.
what a surprise.

xoxo, kriz anya.

As time fly’s by...

SOAK IT IN!

QUOTE #1:

"Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live life."




A STORY CALLED DREAMS:

The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder.

I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that that lit up her entire being.

She said, "Hi, handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?" I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and she gave me a giant squeeze.

"Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked.

She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married, have a couple of children, and then retire and travel."

"No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age.

"I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting one!" she told me.

After class we walked to the student union building and share a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.

Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.

At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor. Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know."

As we laughed she cleared her throat and began: "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success. "You have to laugh and find humor every day. You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it!"

"There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding the opportunity in change."

"Have no regrets. The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets."

She concluded her speech by courageously singing The Rose. She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives. At the years end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago.

One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep.

Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be.

paranoia.

im an idiot. i need to keep a diary/journal again! AHHHHH. i need to see brittanie. *sigh.

fun dididumdum.

three words: holy shit man.

let me just tell you, this whole november has been so fucking intense man, it has to be a joke. i don't even know whats going on. okay i do, but, my days have been long and my weeks go by fast. weekends are no longer long enough, not that they ever were but... they pass by like nothing now, and everything is just fucking out of control. anyways, its december =] which means CHRISTMAS, SNOWBOARDING, ANDDDDD SWEATERS. which i have no fucking cash for ANY of them. i need to get a PT job. so, i probably will. foul though. i dont want to work. im tired all the time with what im already doing right now. but you do what you gotta do. on a lighter note, all i can say is that im working hard, playing harder, and all i really wanna do is focus on school and have a lot of fun. fun fun fun fun fun. so with that said, let the fun begin! :D okay later bitchesz!