mi linda cochina.

im still waiting for my lil sis to post the roots pics up, hurry up pronto k10! anyways, i'm so fucking sick and i've had this annoying and embarrassing cough/sniffle that has taught me finally how to spit a fucking lougey (or however the fuck you spell it). but i now understand the method to bringing phlegm up and spitting it miles a far. seriously, im the worst spitter alive.

in school, we're fusing together 2 LVN nursing programs to one teacher cuz' the other teacher walked out and bailed on the other class. thats my oh so lovely class minus my favorite friend, everardo, but i dont know... tomorrow will be interesting. i found some polaroid film in the garage so im finally able to use that shit. it's been so long since i have and i love my roid. i really do.

don't laugh but i have the jonas bros. cd in my car, i know, shut up, but that's all i've been listening to lately besides the few "summatime: the wackness soundtrack" (seriously, best soundtrack ever plus im a big mk fan), my "krizzy-la" cd that my mom happened to title and my "murs and other shit" cd's i've created. thats been playing in mi coche to and from school and back. whatevs. i heart my playlists. haha

so far, a boring week but its cool.  and B, i do love soap and water and that reminds me!i need to buy falling in love again! thanks for fucking reminding me. haha, foreal. another thang, the homie dusteezy works at threads in SF and i gotta get myself one or all of these sick ass decks so they can post up somewhere in my room, i love it (and don't try to get one yourself... haha):  

and thats all fucking bitches. chupa mi huevos. 

here's the "the wackness" tracks, go get yourself a copy

(and dont tell me its not one of the best soundtracks put together)

fuckin' slap your ass:

Nas - “The World Is Yours”

Raewkon “Heaven and Hell”

Notorious B.I.G. feat. Method Man “The What”

DJ Jazzy Jeff and The Fresh Prince “Summertime”

Donovan - “Season of The Witch”

Biz Markie - “Just A Friend”

Total feat. Notorious B.I.G. “Can’t Ya See”

A Tribe Called Quest - “Can I Kick It”

Faith Evans - “You Used To Love Me”

R Kelly - “Bump N’ Grind”

The Pioneers - “Long Shot Kick de Buckettfont”

Vomit Launch “Exit Lines”

Craig Mack - “Flava In Your Ear”

The Wu Tang Clan - “Tearz”

Mott The Hoople - “All The Young Dudes”

and to leave on a smart tip:

vote for fucking obama and,

"If you forget where you come from, you're never gonna make it where you're going." -Ghostface Killah

hola babycita.

so... after sitting on youtube for damn near 5 days straight trying to watch all these different versions of the "can't believe it" song by t-pain and lil wayne, me and my friend destiny decided to make our own :) i'll have it posted sometime this week.

i've been spending time doing nothing the past few days and it feels fabulous! well, not exactly nothing, but i just haven't been worrying about school since i have the week off. let's see. friday night, i got really drunk. saturday night, my friends all got lit and i just slept all night. sunday, decided to go return the madame lotion by jean paul gaultier that i bought on friday to get the pure grace fragrance instead. i've been usuing amazing grace for so long, and decided it was time for a change for the winter (sorry kriz, i know you love the soap & water, but i just fell in love. promise i'll change it up next season! haha)

anywho. yesterday i just stayed home and recorded videos and whatnot. watched the monday night marathon, which includes gossip girl, one tree hill and the hills. and we even watched a show called man & wife, which was fuckin' hilarious. we were supposed to go to the gym afterwards, but we all got hella tired. besides who goes to the gym to run at 11 o clock at night? fuckkkk that.

okay, time to go on myspace and go investigate. i'm bored and have nothing else to do. blahhhh.

suck it :)

XOXO

lydia paek.

this girl's freaking crazy. my classmate joey, his homegirl, haha we seriously listen to her sing "chasing pavements" by adele on his sidekick for school motivation every morning. but here she iswith aj rafael. i think the collabo they've been doing is one of the bests i've ever heard. anyways, here's their newest video. yeowza!

sweet.

SSDD

motto: same shit, different day.

anyways, last night i went like this. drove to san diego, man i hate LA traffic, went to UCRiverside, saw like 10 seconds of the roots, got everyone's autograph except for questlove (fucking cunt), listened to DJ Z-trip spin some hard ass shit, watched a whole bunch of freshman dance horribly to the sounds, checked out the shitty ass dorms and went home, drank beer and knocked out. lovely.

if today goes how i think it will be it should go a little somethin' like this: finish all my homework which is gonna be so much fun.... then! go to santa barbara, see gabriella, and have a little girls night out - or - go to ventura and hookah/drink with the usuals. whatev, no matter what happens i'll have a good time. its nice to be a social butterflyyyyyyyyy.

i'll post pics later.
suck it, bitches!
Love, kriz anya

ugh.

Finals are over tomorrow and I feel like I've been anticipating this moment for too damn long. What comes before part b? Part-AYE! It's a celebration, bitches. Here's a toast to finishing another fucking quarter of college. :)

Cheers,

XOXO

plastic.

everyones so fucking superficial. fuck this hell hole and everyone living in it, including me.
rough day. what a joke.

dear kriz anya.

i love you both so very much :)
p.s. i'm thuuuuper busy this week so i'll post later! love you!

ciao, darling

XOXO

αγάπη love 사랑 amore

"Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with. " 

- Carrie Bradshaw

   

As I just finished watching my third episode of sex in the city, in the past 2 hours, i couldn't help but realize how true this quote is. Thousands of couples break up because things get too "complicated". Some guys just like "simple" girls. Making things easy, approachable, and most of all, non-challenging. Why is this? Are the guys of our generation too pathetic, too stupid to even understand the concept of "dating for marriage"? Why is it that the ladies in all generations understand that idea? If we date for marriage, or in other terms, we keep dating to find the perfect person to be with, then why do so many couples become partners, even if both of them know that it will never last? Why is it that this, easiness of knowing something won't last forever, make it okay to do? And when people do find someone just as wild to run with, they give up, because things get so challenging? Do we ever really actually get what we deserve? Or, do we choose the love we think we deserve?

It just occurred to me how I've been dealing with my relationship. So many times I've wanted to give up because things got so challenging, so complicated. Other times it was because of jealousy, or the fact that serious relationships shouldn't even be thought about until after the age of 25 (I mean, the standards just keep getting older and older as the years go by). There are times when I feel I shouldn't be in a relationship because we are so young, and all the other teenage young adults are out freak dancing everyone they see, getting belligerently drunk to the point where they can't see, and making it seem like an outstanding amount of fun that others see. But I guess I realized that, no matter how old you are, or how challenging it is, or how jealous you get, despite all the hardships and bullshit, things can work.

I guess I overlooked the fact that my relationship, although challenging and crazy and complicated, is soothing and peaceful and amazing all at the same time. I mean, what's worth it if you don't work for it? Isn't that why a diamond's status is so remarkably high? Because diamonds take forever to form, but a diamond forever lasts. Isn't that why you reward yourself, or you become proud of yourself or someone else? Because they've worked so hard to reach a standard? Or even the fact that you would rather work than sit around and wait to win the lottery. Apparently, our standard does not have to aim to be perfection. We should just aim for compatibility; having someone being harmonious, agreeable, and in perfect sync with you. Wouldn't that be the ideal form of a relationship? Knowing me, I can't be tamed, but, I finally found someone just as wild as me to run with, and despite the conflicts, that makes it okay. 

Love, Kriz Anya

TGIF

so, is it just me... or did this week go by super quick? well, tgif once again because today is going to be my first night out in hollyhood in a very long time. pre-club potions include: a long, long, long nap, a 40oz, and nicotine. perhaps i'll be 21+ tonight, but that only happens when im desperately in need of alcohol. congrats to me for completing my second unbearable week in school, love it. and if my sneaky of a boyfriend is reading this: hello love, i will be good to you tonight and love you muchos jota. until next time? toodles xo

love love love

Stressed out? Irritated? Annoyed? Bitchy? I'd say yes to all four. Finals are this and next week and I feel so damn busy. Sorry if I neglect the blog for a little. I'm just stuck in my own freakin' stressed out world at the moment. To get out of my stressed out world, I decided to watch a movie I picked up at rasputin today for about 4 dollars:

That's another movie to watch. And yes, the guy from home alone and the girl from bring it on. The ending's not so great, but everything leading up to it is. I suggest you watch it behind closed doors :) Don't wanna get caught watching porn or anything like it. Ha!

First loves never die. Right? Well, if that's the case, I'm experiencing that at this exact moment. And I think it's beautiful :) This is the upside of all the stressful nights wrapped up in books and sleepless nights drawing sketches. And me being in dire need of inspiration, I turn to him and he's nothing but motivation and I adore it. Ughh, what first loves can do to ya.

"I've made up my mind,
don't need to
think it over.
if I'm wrong, I am right,
don't need to look no further.
this ain't lust. I know this is love."

it's love, bitches :)

XOXO

P.S. My dearest KrizBell. I'll upload the pictures asap! and I'm so glad I got to see you! Next time, don't forget the christmas present and the spice girls money. hahaha. Love you babydoll. Just livin' the liiiife!

if you ever get the chance to watch this movie, watch it and listen to it, and digest this shit. this documentary is probably one of the best ones i've seen my whole life, and has made me realize how shitty our land of the free is, trust me, it's quite a piece of shit. ill post later on. ciao.

adele adele adele

and if you think ms. adele's good... check out these talented musicians.
they'll make you swoon to the sounds of the love note, and i nearly bet you'll have this song running around your head for days. i'm guilty.

paaatrick, baaaaby boy.

i've been meaning to watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind just because kriz reminds me of it :) hopefully if things go as planned, i'll be able to see her tomorrow! HOLLAAAA.

as soon as I got home this morning (because I didn't come home last night, ahh!), i got on my laptop and just started downloading songs because I got so sidetracked from my main plan, which was to spend the whole day doing laundry and homework (the laundry bit was okay, but the whole homework thing didn't pan out as well as it should have). spent a couple HOURS doing that, while feeding the dogs in between and trying to make doctors appointments and whatnot (my ankles been killing me for the longest effin' time, it's not even funny). should've went to the thrift store with emelene, but decided to stay in. so, i still need to shower and get ready for whatever life throws at me tonight (which is hopefully getting shitfaced because I haven't done that in so long!)

anywho, download these in case you get sidetracked too!

- allure feat. nas - head over heels remix

- maroon 5 - won't go home without you

- raphael saadiq - i love that girl

- jon b - are you still down for me

- ne-yo - why does she stay

- UNI - beautiful day

- rock city - see you around

- devin the dude - can't make it home

- kanye west - love lockdown

- blu & exile - no greater love

- common feat. pharrell - announcement

OH! and tune in to the Lifetime channel tomorrow night at 9pm in which Shirley MacLaine plays fashion legend CoCo Chanel in this biopic :) 'Tis all.

peace out, slut.

XOXO

goodmorning love.

dear kriz anya,

so, you mean to tell me if i went to L.A. this weekend, you would've been here? ugh. well, i'm not going to L.A. so maybe i'll see you! or not. you're so busy, and i'm such a busy body too. soooo, good luck to that. ha! anyways, it's been forever since i've seen you. where the fuck did time go? how did we allow ourselves not to see eachother for so long? lame-o's. well, it's okay because we have the rest of our lives to spend together! right? word. well, have fun on the drive with your fags and your knowledge. wish you had a phone to call me from on your way up here, so i can sing you songs. hahaha. but okayyyy, i love you and i hope to hear from you when we're both not busy studying and going on road trips.

love, baby b.

XOXO

.tihs yloh

tgif tomorrow. swept through the first day of school with one tardy and cigarettes per break, its something else. a trip to the salinas fields tomorrow and back sunday which is still a joke since i have an enormous fucking shit load of weekend homework for crying out loud. four hour highway drives, fags, and a whole bunch of knowledge is about to happen. and here's to another night crammed with modules and guides and literature. what a wonderful life i live, everyone should be jealous of me. yes, that was a joke.

xoxo fuck you, kriz anya.

ridiculous.

HOLY SH*T.

I NEED TO MARRY A BILLIONAIRE ASAP!

On the not as green side of the grass, I got pretty bummed out when my mom called yelling at me about how I never go out with her and my dad anymore. Ugh. It sucks 'cause I know I don't really do anything at home anymore because I'm so busy with school and drumline and stuff, but it hurts more when she actually confronts me about it, and its not the first time this has happened. I feel like they should understand, especially going from having all the freedom in the world to moving back with my parents, but maybe I'm the one that's not understanding. Ughhh. I'll figure it out later.

Onward.

XOXO

cheers to genius.

"Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes - the ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules and they have no respect for the status quo. You can praise them, disagree with them, quote them, disbelieve them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing that you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. - Jack Kerouac
learn to love it. love, kriz anya.

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.

hundred eye vision.

HIEROGLYPHICS X THE HUNDREDS

Bitch I'm the bomb, like tick... tick

The End.

XOXO

seeking inspiration.

Hello World!!!

Ready for your mind fuck? Well too bad because I'm so not in the mood. My life has been consumed of the daily 2 hour drive to and from school, in which I inhale about 3 cigarettes each way, which by the way are not even worth it. If I could, I would buy candy cigarettes to pretend smoke and eat on the way to school, but my diet won't allow me to do that.

So, I'm stuck in merchandising class trying to focus on finding inspiration for my final project, which is to come up with a line for spring 2009. What's my inspiration? ___________. Exactly. I have no clue whatsoever. So I will continue my journey to find whatever the fuck inspiration I can in order to sketch 8 of the bossiest designs that this school has ever seen, and leave you in the dust :)

Ciao Baby!

XOXO

kamikaze

can you find me? me fucking neither. make yourself at home.

nightly chores

after some regretful glasses of white whine and cigarettes i've come to realize a lot of bullshit details i've seemed to overlook. what the fuck though. why is it when you want something, you can never get it, and when you can get, you dont want it?

fucking cunts, i swear. anyways, i've decided to sacrifice a good friday night on a shit load of studying, cheap wine, and finishing my box of fucking cigarettes which reminds me that i need to buy more tomorrow morning. for one, what a bitch. and secondly, why waste a good friday night when you know its the last available friday night you have before your 11 month school period starts? i might just go to hell for it.

im going to fuck my brains away with all this stupedness.
hope you do the same. xoxo, yours truly.

hello beautiful

Well, we are here to give you the mind fucking
experiences of our lives. we don't intend to change
your life or to provide any type of therapeutic shit,
maybe to change ours, and provide some type of
therapeutic shit for us, because thats reasonable...
but if we do, ain't no guilt in that now is there?
heres to: our lovers, the liquor, the nicotine,
headaches, hangovers, remedies, sacrifices, alone
time, nightlife, hugs and kisses and our fucked up
lives... Plus, our rendition of the 21st century.

Bon appetit lovers.
xoxo and a cigarette to go
with it.